Letting go

A lot has changed for me in the last few months. I lost myself and then my grandfather . The truth is that I havent really found myself yet. The things that mattered before dont really matter as much anymore. I love my church and volunteering. I love learning and knowing about Jesus and watching my kids grow in that. I just not loving myself too much right now.

I had the past and the present behind me or at least I thought so. Things have a way of shoving themselves back into your life when you are most vulnerable. Now I am slowly trying to let go of the things that are holding me back. Todays message was awesome as it always is. My only problem is that I am not sure I really want to hear what God has to say or maybe he has already said it and I wasn’t listening. I dont really know the answer to that one. I just know that I have to keep asking the right questions. 

 

The lost eulogy-My tribute to my grandfather

My grandfather\’s eulogy

The death of my grandfather

Most of you are not aware that my grandfather passed away on May 2, 2008. He was 95 years old. The girls and I drove 860 miles to my parents house to be there. When it comes to family we never use the excuse that “we cant be there” or we can’t afford it.

Originally I planned to share the eulogy that I gave then but I couldnt get it into this entry so it is seperate. Just click and read it.

The truth is since then my life has changed in so many ways that I forget that I am human sometimes and I have neglected this part of my life out of fear and so I move forward in honor of him and my love for Jesus.